by melahknee on Fri Sep 25, 2009 5:03 pm
To everyone on here this title has a different meaning...
I've come to the conclusion that weed, is my anti drug.
i use weed to cope with reality, in the past i've used much harder drugs to do this.
i've always hated when people would brag about their addictions and what drugs they've done and blahhh blahh blah...... but i really feel like this is something to share so that others can learn from it as i have.
My family has a history of drug use.
my mother told me that her and my dad cooked crack in their bath tub before i was born.
my dad was in veitnam where i'm sure u can only imagine how many drugs he did there, hes told me about numerous occasions where hes smoked heroine and crack.
now my mom just smokes weed, but my dad doesn't do ANYTHING, he doesn't even drink alcohol.
my older brother (hes 25) is a meth addict, he has used on and off since he was 18.
it all started for me when i was 14.
i've always thought i was more grown up then i was and i would go to partys with older people, aged from about 18-23.
i have always been interested in older guys (pretty sure this rooted from my mom being 16 and my dad being 37 when they met)
i was at a particular party at the tender age if 14 when cocaine was offered to me for the first time. of course i took a few lines and was high off my ass.... but i thought it was AMAZING.
The next step in my history of drugs was meth. i was also 14 when i first did it.
i was into this guy who was 18 and he lit the pickle (meth pipe) for me and held it to my lips and twisted.
i soon realized what the big deal was with all these drugs.
They were a temporary escape from reality, and i loved it.
Although i loved the feeling of meth, i loved the feeling of meth and weed at the same time. i felt like i was rolling on ecstasy only WAYYYYY better... it was like nothing i can describe. i felt like i was on top of the world. weed makes EVERYTHING better.
i've done meth on and off since then (i've been clean for a while now tho)
At the age of 16 i did heroine for the first time, i didn't think it was ANYTHING compared to meth, but i did it a couple of times, i loved the "relaxed" feeling... i wished that life could ALWAYS be that way.
Now here i am, still living in the same small town that i did all these drugs in... waiting for my ticket out of here. (which it looks like im going to have to earn on my own)
i know all of the same people and i watch them on drugs and now i realize that i was once like them.... and seeing how they act i feel obnoxious for having ever done any of those drugs in the first place.
Not only do they make u physically unhealthy, but they are HORRIBLE for your mental sanity.
So now i just stick to weed, it keeps me happy and isn't bad for my health.
I know i'm not the only one out there who has a past like this, but i also know that not too many people will want to share their most sensitive experiences as i have.
Please do not discriminate because of my past...
instead post your thoughts on the matter, or your own personal past.
or just tell me how u realized that weed is the ONLY drug for you. =]
BTW: i've been clean now for about 6 months, this may not sound like a long time.... but believe me... IT IS!
it just takes work. keep tokin keep smokin stay high for sho
